Tell me where to go
What to swallow
Where to cut.
Lashes drenched
Cheeks stained
Heart soaked
Until the brim.
The walls are so high
So thick
An illusion of safety
But now its those same walls
That suffocate me
My nails worn out
My fingers bleed
And I can't seem to tear them down.
My mind is cloudy
Drowning in incessant screams
The walls are hollow
Bearing a kaleidoscope of scars
All the vituperation
Renders my throat all sore
But I can't seem to stop the noise.
Its all a trap
The whole damn world
Its all a lie
Even those without the masks
The words are like smoke
Feeble and insignificant
The promises rust
And crumble
Under the lightest t
Lost Inside My Sick Head by hotchillispice, literature
Literature
Lost Inside My Sick Head
I wander astray
No, I'm not lost
The confidence, rippling
Fooling the crowd.
I don't need a mask
Not anymore
I've worn one so long
It embodies my soul.
It's funny
How easy it is
To fool the world.
Then again,
Why wouldn't it be,
I strut around bodies
Who don't have a care in the world.
Here and there sometimes
I catch a glimpse
Of a shiny little soul
And I know
They wander too
With no hope anymore.
We cross paths sometimes
And something sparks
At the end of the tunnel.
But we're both the same
In a state of lost faith
And we run
At the first sense of pain.
With some its more,
We find each other
And cling tight.
That's probably what
Keeps me
The little girl,
Inside of me,
Watched with fear,
As the bars around her,
Had strengthened over time.
As every right choice,
Was trampled upon.
As every cry for help,
Every scream for escape,
Was muted and reduced,
To tears that scarred her soul.
The small girl, was
Trapped in her own
Battered childhood,
Which she re-lived
Every second of the day.
She watched her older self
Rust and rot and shrivel,
Eventually crumbling to dust,
In a world without a care.
She looked on helplessly,
With tears storming her face,
To the woman,
Who was numb now,
With a stone heart,
And one wish in her lips.
To find release in death.
Simply existing in the secon
Your Battered Ragdoll by hotchillispice, literature
Literature
Your Battered Ragdoll
Pain is a funny thing,
The thought making you cringe;
I always wished if I felt pain,
It would be your tinge.
My reflection glared back at me,
An old gash across my cheek;
It still quivers under my touch,
Where your ring claimed the bloody streak.
My gaze fell to my hands,
My palm reveals a stab incision;
Haunted by the gleam in your eyes,
You and your knife had such great vision.
I wince as I extend my neck,
My collarbone reveals your canine prints;
The scent etched in my brain,
Of our shared breath mints.
You struck a match,
I reveled in the singe;
Disgusted. Rage. You abandoned me,
The door flew off its hinge.
I miss yo
You pick your favorite tie,
your eyes dark, filled with craving.
Staring at the floor,
I dare not meet your gaze,
Panting,
But terrified all the same.
I hold up my wrists,
And you move swiftly with talent.
I kneel before you,
My blood boiling,
Your fist in my hair.
I tilt my head back,
Your lips,
Scorching my skin.
My vision now compromized,
I feel hollow and lost.
Desire,
Coursing through my veins.
And then it comes,
A single hard blow.
My body wrenches,
My flesh sizzles,
My scream echos.
Beads of sweat,
Cold against my skin,
Collecting in the small of my back.
I know I can do it,
For you my love,
But thirty six
I saw you for the first time,
My heart stopped in a moment of wonder,
But what I thought was a moment,
Seemed to go on forever.
Your beautiful silhouette,
So gracefully claiming the earth.
Your deep blue eyes,
So calm and so serene.
Its five months now,
You barely notice me,
An occasional glace,
Keeps the fire blazing within me.
Why don't you see the intensity in my stare?
Why don't you see the longing in my eyes?
Why don't you feel the heat from my body?
Why don't you hear the sound of my smoke?
And then,
Only one thought I succumb to,
Maybe I'm not perfect enough for you.
Its a year now, and nothing has changed.
Except
Letter from the victim by hotchillispice, literature
Literature
Letter from the victim
Dear Hunter,
I finally realize what is meant by hunters love to play with their pray. You've exhausted me as much as your foul mind would allow you to. I remember your hands all over me and all I would feel like was filth. Your smell was so intoxicating at first. But then eventually it would bring dread and horror. And ofcourse. How could I forget your eyes. Those round black pupils. They would cut right through my skin, making it crawl.
I remember sitting on the bed infront of you as you paced up and down. You would tell me about how you used to watch me in my classes or at the mall. You mentioned how my fin
Its another hard day,
Relentless night,
Silenced to suffer all that is inflicted.
In my bed I cry,
On and on,
And wonder why.
I realize that I don't fit,
I can't breathe,
I feel like a fish out of water.
Chained physically and mentally,
Yearning, craving,
Silently begging,
To venture into the world outside.
All my dreams are put aside,
For all I wish now is to break free.
The day seems so close,
Yet just out of reach.
Memories buried inside,
Trying hard to keep them drowned,
But as my soul gets tainted,
A little everyday,
The darkness draws me toward it.
I hold the blade in my hand,
Staring through teary eyes,
Vision b
I hit rock bottom,
There is no pain as i crash land,
You made the journey so sweet,
I didn't realize.
Here I am now,
At this fork in the road,
Introspecting, looking back.
Those fine words,
That would make me blush crimson,
Those moments,
That I couldn't help but,
surrender to the butterflies.
The movie stubs,
I so carefully kept.
And then we hit a bump,
Which for the sake of my life
I can't understand why.
I felt my smile turn to tears,
And with each tear,
I let a little bit of you go.
You're words changed,
Meaningless.
The butterflies,
Flew away.
You crumple the movie stubs,
Breaking my heart into a million pieces.
Tell me where to go
What to swallow
Where to cut.
Lashes drenched
Cheeks stained
Heart soaked
Until the brim.
The walls are so high
So thick
An illusion of safety
But now its those same walls
That suffocate me
My nails worn out
My fingers bleed
And I can't seem to tear them down.
My mind is cloudy
Drowning in incessant screams
The walls are hollow
Bearing a kaleidoscope of scars
All the vituperation
Renders my throat all sore
But I can't seem to stop the noise.
Its all a trap
The whole damn world
Its all a lie
Even those without the masks
The words are like smoke
Feeble and insignificant
The promises rust
And crumble
Under the lightest t
Lost Inside My Sick Head by hotchillispice, literature
Literature
Lost Inside My Sick Head
I wander astray
No, I'm not lost
The confidence, rippling
Fooling the crowd.
I don't need a mask
Not anymore
I've worn one so long
It embodies my soul.
It's funny
How easy it is
To fool the world.
Then again,
Why wouldn't it be,
I strut around bodies
Who don't have a care in the world.
Here and there sometimes
I catch a glimpse
Of a shiny little soul
And I know
They wander too
With no hope anymore.
We cross paths sometimes
And something sparks
At the end of the tunnel.
But we're both the same
In a state of lost faith
And we run
At the first sense of pain.
With some its more,
We find each other
And cling tight.
That's probably what
Keeps me
The little girl,
Inside of me,
Watched with fear,
As the bars around her,
Had strengthened over time.
As every right choice,
Was trampled upon.
As every cry for help,
Every scream for escape,
Was muted and reduced,
To tears that scarred her soul.
The small girl, was
Trapped in her own
Battered childhood,
Which she re-lived
Every second of the day.
She watched her older self
Rust and rot and shrivel,
Eventually crumbling to dust,
In a world without a care.
She looked on helplessly,
With tears storming her face,
To the woman,
Who was numb now,
With a stone heart,
And one wish in her lips.
To find release in death.
Simply existing in the secon
Your Battered Ragdoll by hotchillispice, literature
Literature
Your Battered Ragdoll
Pain is a funny thing,
The thought making you cringe;
I always wished if I felt pain,
It would be your tinge.
My reflection glared back at me,
An old gash across my cheek;
It still quivers under my touch,
Where your ring claimed the bloody streak.
My gaze fell to my hands,
My palm reveals a stab incision;
Haunted by the gleam in your eyes,
You and your knife had such great vision.
I wince as I extend my neck,
My collarbone reveals your canine prints;
The scent etched in my brain,
Of our shared breath mints.
You struck a match,
I reveled in the singe;
Disgusted. Rage. You abandoned me,
The door flew off its hinge.
I miss yo
You pick your favorite tie,
your eyes dark, filled with craving.
Staring at the floor,
I dare not meet your gaze,
Panting,
But terrified all the same.
I hold up my wrists,
And you move swiftly with talent.
I kneel before you,
My blood boiling,
Your fist in my hair.
I tilt my head back,
Your lips,
Scorching my skin.
My vision now compromized,
I feel hollow and lost.
Desire,
Coursing through my veins.
And then it comes,
A single hard blow.
My body wrenches,
My flesh sizzles,
My scream echos.
Beads of sweat,
Cold against my skin,
Collecting in the small of my back.
I know I can do it,
For you my love,
But thirty six
I saw you for the first time,
My heart stopped in a moment of wonder,
But what I thought was a moment,
Seemed to go on forever.
Your beautiful silhouette,
So gracefully claiming the earth.
Your deep blue eyes,
So calm and so serene.
Its five months now,
You barely notice me,
An occasional glace,
Keeps the fire blazing within me.
Why don't you see the intensity in my stare?
Why don't you see the longing in my eyes?
Why don't you feel the heat from my body?
Why don't you hear the sound of my smoke?
And then,
Only one thought I succumb to,
Maybe I'm not perfect enough for you.
Its a year now, and nothing has changed.
Except
Letter from the victim by hotchillispice, literature
Literature
Letter from the victim
Dear Hunter,
I finally realize what is meant by hunters love to play with their pray. You've exhausted me as much as your foul mind would allow you to. I remember your hands all over me and all I would feel like was filth. Your smell was so intoxicating at first. But then eventually it would bring dread and horror. And ofcourse. How could I forget your eyes. Those round black pupils. They would cut right through my skin, making it crawl.
I remember sitting on the bed infront of you as you paced up and down. You would tell me about how you used to watch me in my classes or at the mall. You mentioned how my fin
Its another hard day,
Relentless night,
Silenced to suffer all that is inflicted.
In my bed I cry,
On and on,
And wonder why.
I realize that I don't fit,
I can't breathe,
I feel like a fish out of water.
Chained physically and mentally,
Yearning, craving,
Silently begging,
To venture into the world outside.
All my dreams are put aside,
For all I wish now is to break free.
The day seems so close,
Yet just out of reach.
Memories buried inside,
Trying hard to keep them drowned,
But as my soul gets tainted,
A little everyday,
The darkness draws me toward it.
I hold the blade in my hand,
Staring through teary eyes,
Vision b
Tell me where to go
What to swallow
Where to cut.
Lashes drenched
Cheeks stained
Heart soaked
Until the brim.
The walls are so high
So thick
An illusion of safety
But now its those same walls
That suffocate me
My nails worn out
My fingers bleed
And I can't seem to tear them down.
My mind is cloudy
Drowning in incessant screams
The walls are hollow
Bearing a kaleidoscope of scars
All the vituperation
Renders my throat all sore
But I can't seem to stop the noise.
Its all a trap
The whole damn world
Its all a lie
Even those without the masks
The words are like smoke
Feeble and insignificant
The promises rust
And crumble
Under the lightest t
I'm cursed to live my days alone
With nothing but this heart of stone.
And through the lonely days I weep
With nothing left but hate to seep.
Stuck forever in this hopeless night,
Too many scars from this endless fight.
And still I guess that I'm to blame
For making everything stay the same.
I could have changed it if I tried.
Instead I cheated and scammed and lied.
It's all my fault, can't you see?
That I'm my own worst enemy?
I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz
I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I'm INTELLIGENT so I MUST be weak.
I'm a VIRGIN so I MUST be prude.
I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.
I'm SINGLE so I MUST be ugly.
I'm DATING, so I MUST be screwing that person.
I'm MARRIED, so I MUST stay at home vacuuming.
I'm a GAY RIGHTS SUPPORTER, so I WILL go to hell.
I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm BI, so I MUST think every
Dead Bodies Don't Cry by QuirkyCuriousBex, literature
Literature
Dead Bodies Don't Cry
i.
You are born with twisted feet
and a pockmark on your chest.
Your poor mother is drenched in sweat,
straining to breathe,
thanking God that it's over.
She cradles you in her arms
and kisses your forehead with curved lips.
Your father reaches out to hold you
but has to pause because
your mother will not release you yet.
The family pays a visit,
hovering in awe, praising, laughing.
You look around for someone to blame.
ii.
When you learn to write
you use all the wrong letters
because you feel sorry for the ones
that get left out, like X and Z.
And you wear mismatched clothes
because you don't like the idea that
only certain colors "go t
The little girl,
Inside of me,
Watched with fear,
As the bars around her,
Had strengthened over time.
As every right choice,
Was trampled upon.
As every cry for help,
Every scream for escape,
Was muted and reduced,
To tears that scarred her soul.
The small girl, was
Trapped in her own
Battered childhood,
Which she re-lived
Every second of the day.
She watched her older self
Rust and rot and shrivel,
Eventually crumbling to dust,
In a world without a care.
She looked on helplessly,
With tears storming her face,
To the woman,
Who was numb now,
With a stone heart,
And one wish in her lips.
To find release in death.
Simply existing in the secon
'Cause you're a sky, 'cause you're a sky full of stars
I'm gonna give you my heart
'Cause you're a sky, 'cause you're a sky full of stars
'Cause you light up the path
I don't care, go on and tear me apart
I don't care if you do, ooh
'Cause in a sky, 'cause in a sky full of stars
I think I saw you
'Cause you're a sky, 'cause you're a sky full of stars
I wanna die in your arms
'Cause you get lighter the more it gets dark
I'm gonna give you my heart
I don't care, go on and tear me apart
I don't care if you do, ooh
'Cause in a sky, 'cause in a sky full of stars
I think I see you
I think I see you
You're a sky, you're a sky full o
Take me down to the river bend
Take me down to the fighting end
Wash the poison from off my skin
Show me how to be whole again
Fly me up on a silver wing
Past the black, where the sirens sing
Warm me up in a nova's glow
And drop me down to the dream below
'Cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see
For you to see
Bring me home in a blinding dream,
Through the secrets that I have seen
Wash the sorrow from off my skin
And show me how to be whole again
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